The start…

A new day, a new beginning is what they say… Guess I’m still struggling to incorporate this into my life.
I’ve just started this blog, no idea why I thought it would be a good idea, but hey, here I am anyways. The instructions say to use this first blog to introduce myself and explain why I have started this and what I intend to do.
To be honest, I have no idea what the heck I am doing, but I can introduce my self.

I’m just a girl from Queensland, Australia. I’m in my late 20’s. My life from a person who isn’t me see’s all smiles, happiness and an all round pretty good existence. I have a job, a partner, and son who will be starting school soon, both of whom are absolutely amazing and love me to pieces. To an outsider, I have everything I could possibly want or need.

Looking at me from my eyes, from within myself, it’s a different story. A story I don’t share normally, I mean why would I? Half the time no one really cares, plus people have their own issues in life. I guess I don’t share my thoughts or feelings because I’m to scared.
People look at me and think I’m so strong, they think I have it together. I’m the one that people come to with their problems and get wise words and wisdom from to help them achieve a good and positive outcome.

I don’t have many friends, quite a lot of acquaintances, but no true friends really, I used to, but somehow the friendships fade into an abyss of nothingness. I’m starting to think it’s me.

Anyways, if you happen to come across this blog in some crazy off-chance, please be warned, this won’t be filled with words of wisdom, cheerful quotes and stories. No this is my chance to finally be me without being worried of people I know judging me, this is my chance to release my darkness, to be honest about it and hey maybe get some insight on myself and how to deal with it.

I have clinical depression, GAD with Panic disorder. I’m experiencing a form of bullying. And for once I can openly say, NO, I’M NOT OK!